It hurts.

I want to be like Effy from Skins.
I want to be this way because she seems like nothing gets to her.
She's bold.
She's got nothing to lose.
I wanna be like that.
Willing to speak my mind because there's nothing more to lose.
Keep everyone at arm's length because, well, why the fuck not?
They're gonna leave anyway!
I wanna be like Effy.

I want to be so like this woman that my friends call me by "Effy".
I know she's not a real person, but I want to be like her. Beautiful, distant, and...sarcastic.
Really, to be called Effy... would be an honor to me. Haha.